Nobody comes through in this town, seriously, this town is full of flakes.

Not that it matters, it is not like they are OBLIGED to hang out or be my friend, but it's a little fucked up when you say you'll do something and just don't.


Not that it matters anyway, i'll be out of this god for saken town in about a week.

Then, I can get on with the rest of my life and never think of here again.

i want to be home.


If I spend just 200 dollars in the next week I will come out of New Mexico 4 thousand dollars richer...



I just need to stay focused and remember that this happened for a reason.

This happened for a reason.

I find myself looking at the calander on my phone a lot and counting down the days before I return.Half way.How do you help a girl break through a brainwash?

Things are changing, and I find myself fantasizing of the possibilities.

When I come back there will be a house there.

And the house is where I will live.

Only, I am by myself, and no one will tell me what to do.

I am not so naive as to not realize how difficult this is going to be.

With the start of college the difficulties are bound only to increase.

But my God am I excited for what the future holds in store.




...








Of course I always am.

Is it sad to gather inspiration from a TV character?
I don't think so, one so well conceived as this one can do a lot more than just be on TV.

Mr.Don Draper.

His life only has one direction, forward.

One can learn a lot from that.

I can still feel that spark.
I just think it needs a little bit of air.

Had a dream that my friend was freaking out and he thought he was a robot, while I was trying to impress a girl, and it was so fucking funny I started laughing in real life and it woke me up.



awesome.

Sup title bar

I don't hate douche bags, I find them to be excellent reflections of our society without the burden of self reflection.


I satisfied my urge to consume today, but even I know that doesn't keep you satisfied for long or in a meaningful way.

So I bought a book.












Everyone has a different way to lie to themselves.

Almost halfway there. Walked probably like 3 to 5 miles around a part of this city called Nob Hill.Met an old lady who would not stop talking to me.AIRATTTAIOM?

Well everything seems to be turning around. n.n

Well everything seems to be turning around. n.n

well thats more like it.

and then suddenly you realize the world is full of horrors that you'll never exerpince.

and people have it much worse than you do.

so you sit down and talk to them.

and write down what you feel.

Everything sucks.

everything.

I just threw away the popcorn. Everything evens out. I'll have my time...karma I guess

Depressing life. About to go see harry potter. The fucking tub of popcorn tastes like shit. I don't mean to complain but come on, throw me a fucking bone.

get me out of here.

I do this purely for the money.

This has to be worth it, this has to mean something, I just need to keep an open mind.

But it's hard when things are so dull.




I don't hate this city, I just wish I had someone to share it with.

sometimes I just want to explode.


I just want to shout out everything I've ever felt.

I hate when people don't talk to me.

I can only hope that there is a reason for all this, a reason I'm stuck in the middle of the desert, a reason I feel so shitty right now, and a reason why things are the way they are.

I just can't fucking handle emotions, fuck everything right now, I can't handle feeling so much all the fucking time.


Fuck. this.

I guess I'll just have to close up shop.
Run away, run away, run away.


I can't feel like this
all
the
time

the work couldn't be all mine

Do you live for the heat of the moment or do our dreams pass by without knowing it?

If you're with me let's get up and get going






come on lets go


come on lets go

Close my eyes.

This world takes love for granted.

Who am I anymore?

See inside.

Wait not for their lies.

Can't seem to get myself outta bed. I really should try. No one in town this weekend except me...the thought of the 2,000, for better or worse, keeps me going.

The lack of friends might be starting to get to me. Temporary homesickness I hope.

This guy here said I lookes like I was from southern mexico. Interesting, i never realized some people could tell

Tmrw I will move to my new place, perhaps then can I explore more. I am the only male intern, oh my.

Only on my second day here, but mannnn are thiings slow right now. Let's hope it picks up soon! I want to explore this city.

The sunsets here are beautiful

The combo of lack of sleep, the mix of people at the airport, and my anxiousness is making my mind wonder wildly. The desert landscape is haunting and beautiful

I fall in love. Maybe that is my problem. Am I so strange for falling in love?

the planes aren't the only things taking off at this airport.

Every passing glance at the airport makes me wonder what a life with that person in it would mean. So much life being lived every single day.

ALL ABOARD!

THIS IS YOU'RE LAST TASTE OF THE ESSENCE WE LIKE TO CALL ADOLESCENCE.

AFTER THIS VOYAGE, THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME.













one month to forget about it all.




When I get back: the rest of my life.

I knew you two would split.
It's interesting to see why though.







I hope it's not too hard living with you.
I can already see where problems might arise.
But hopefully, like in everything, the good times cancel out the bad.

Flashes to the north.
Silent light strikes the night.
There is no need for thunder.

and the moon makes me wonder.

What I do with the English language is my business.



Do I what? English is my business, the language.


The English language, with the "I" "Do" "is" "my". What Business!





....

I hate not getting sleep.
The desert is coming soon.

And I will leave this town again.
And when I come back, there is no time for a mend.
Either i'll float or I'm in for a bend.
The lovers are lovers, the friends are friends.








What do you do, when boys become men?

like a dying star

It wish I had more patience.

They say passion is hard to sustain.










something.needs.to.happen.

Something needs to happen

I need to sit down with someone and just talk and talk and talk and talk. Someone who gets it. So I can maybe flesh out some of these thoughts.