Depressing.

depressing.

depressing.

I will just close my eyes and let myself type for a while.


what a beautiful life that was possible.

What a lifestyle that could have happened.

But of course nothing ever happens as you hope it would.

I am so done hoping for an ideal person. God I thought I knew you, but I guess I was wrong. How could someone I cared so much about cause me so much pain.

so much fucking pain.

I'm so depressed about everything. I need someone to save me again. But there is no one anymore.

So I call out to you. Who ever you are. There is no one I can trust anymore, no one I can talk to anymore. I wonder where you are.I wonder if you cam show me how to feel. How I am supposed to feel.




Because I am so done being rejected.

And I am so done trying to be in love with you.












my heart is so full of love.


just...no one wants it.