Bleh.

I don't even like the feeling anymore.

It seems like the weight of everything I have to do is constantly pressing itself against my skull.

I know I need to deal with all these things mounting up.

But I realize more and more that this...this addiction is something that is not going to help.

it

just makes

it

worse.

addiction addiction addiction

I can't lie to myself.

A mild one, to be sure, thank goodness the withdrawals are so minimal to be close to non existent.

I already tried once and failed miserably.

I don't like not being able to do this.

examine, engage, resist

EUREKA!

I only have a little left, let it be the end for a while.

But it has to be for a special occasion...

So, I will abstain until that moment comes, and after it is gone, no more.

I know I can do this.

For how long is a tricky question, lets try all of march.

Then we will see where it goes from there.

This country is so fucking crazy.

US kids are now doing what is called "Constant eating"

What the fuck is that shit?

But then you realize you're pretty much doing the same thing.

And then, where does that put you?

But i'm not obese....

Thank God I lucked out in the genetics of that...

Go Kanye, Go.

The warming weather is nice to be sure.

But the earth after melted snow is just not one of my favorite things in the world.

I've had a string of negative chance lately, seems logical to believe that things will balance out soon.

Unless that negative chance was just to balance out the Luck...

We'll see I guess.

Until then, just gotta keep my heart strong, head clear, and my hands working and I will be OK.