"If this is how you folks make art, its fucking depressing."


sometimes I just let myself type and type and type until i run out of things to say. Today i told one of my former better friends that I thought she did to many drugs, she seemed really standoffish about it but hopefully the jolt of reality has made her head start thinking. So much talent to waste, so much talent to waste.


Soon I will do this with another friend who I feel is wasting away their life, is it really my place to do this to these people? I don't want to be THAT friend, the preachy mother fucker no one can stand, but jesus, so much talent to waste and talent is not very common in all honesty.


Man today was nuts, i had to make some car insurance payments and boy o boy was it a dent in my wallet, well in all honesty it really wasn't all that much cause I can afford it THANK GOD, I feel light years ahead of some people when it comes to growing up, it still hasn't hit my like a ton of bricks as I was promised it would but at least I know the bricks are coming.


and knowing is half the battle

to keep this up you have to type even if you have nothing to say, and so that is exactly what I am doing right now.

I went to other wells fargos to see how they all worked, some where better, others worse. I like where I work. Everyone is real nice and I finally think I have them mostly figured out. It is just too bad I might not get a chance to let them know me :O


I feel destinies pulling at me. and they desperately want to win. They both want to take my life and run with it, but I have the final word, the final choice to see where I go.

I feel like I am someone with a destiny, maybe I'm just full of myself, but Idk, does everyone feel like this? I just feel like something is guiding me, like there is a plan.


I think the universe, or whatever the fuck it is that is guiding me is pulling me towards political science/law or film/entrainment industry.

I have no the time to be big time in both areas.

Latinos are about to wield so much power, and sooner rather than later. And I would be lying if I didn't want to be a part of that.

But this up rise must also be caught in art, and I'd like to be a part of that too.

I want to make a movie on the experience of one of my friends, I already have the boy I want to make a film about, now I just need the girl. I already have some ideas.


"And I hope that our candles flicker and die, so our hearts don't burn to the ground"

Man o man, "lets get some soda?" That made me chuckle, I wonder why you are how you are.

And i wonder why I am how I am


My family, I wish I knew them better.

My little nephew is so cool, he loves all the little jokes I do with him, but I feel like a douche bag cause he doesn't play with anybody else when I'm around.

But maybe I should just think about his happiness and play with him :)


New student enrollment is coming up, I think I shall take intro to anthropology. Why? Because I feel like my life is pulling me there as well.


So we'll just go with the flow.


This seems to be very long but I'm just typing typing away.

I love poetry, I just wish i understood it.


This is raw, this is me, this is what I am meant to be.

Just a little memory.




take my advice, please, just please.


you

are the reason

"If i don't go to hell when I die I might go to heaven"


but probably not.

my fingers are tired.



PHEW!

"You live in a unforgivng place."